to my beloved section,

like I said in my letters,
my love for you all is as broad as the sky.
All of you have really, really put in your 300%, and guess what, we really did our best, I could hear it on stage.
and OMG vania said exactly what I felt.
I truly understood what "the award doesn't matter" means.
I mean, so what if we got double silver?
So what if the school/other bands/other people are going to label us as a mere "silver band".
I know I sound a bit harsh, sorry.
But if you look at the big picture,
what does it matter? So my point is, awards are like this misleading thing that have made us all so obsessed over them, but it isn't necessary at all.
Isn't music supposed to be personal?

Think about it-
many people have been obsessed with perfection (I admit I'm a perfectionist, those who know me well should understand) in music, the details must be there and if I don't perform up to my standards, I will become really pissed at myself and sink into some state of depression.
But I asked myself, what is the main purpose of music?
Isn't music supposed to entertain,
to relate to people,
to bring smiles to people's faces,
to make them feel good,
to touch people's hearts,
to convey a certain message,
to foster relationships?
so my main point is,
music need not to be perfect in order for it to achieve its purpose. good music need not be perfect.
ABSTRACT YO. THINK ABOUT IT :)

During SYF 2009, I was really disappointed, because I wanted that Gold or GWH, and I wasn't content with that silver, I thought how unfair it was, and from that day onwards, I told myself, during SYF 2011, we must get that GWH. Now I look back and remember that thought, and I realise how stupid I've been.

Compare the significance of the award with the SYF experience.
We have grown so much. We have become much stronger and bonded as a section, after we have all put in our 300% together. I think the senior-junior relationships are much, much stronger now, we can talk about almost anything with each other comfortably.
And not forgetting character development. Last night I dreamt that after SYF, I climbed one huge step up a really big staircase and I looked down at the world below, then I felt a gush of wind (imaginary of course) that passed through me, and I thought to myself, is that what it feels like to gain enlightenment HAHA.
what a funny dream indeed.

Last night, I cried, not because I felt the unfairness of getting a silver for SYF just like how I felt in 2009.
I cried,
because I knew that as a Sec 4 I would soon miss out the essence of passion and bondedness in NYCB's music. It's like, my heart is in this numb state now and I wanted more of NYCB's music.
I knew that soon I won't get to experience that kind of feeling anymore.
I knew that I would be leaving this wonderful trumpets section soon.
I knew that this was going to be my last SYF ever.

Thank you everyone for being a part of this wonderful journey.
I'll treasure it for life.
<3 xin yi